A new Chance...

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And again, I say I don't deserve it, but I am glad to have it...

Still... There is heartache with this chance. He now seems to doubt that he is the father of Cayden and Nakia... Not that I blame him, but he doesn't want to add more stress on them by asking for them to perform a test to be sure. I can't help but wonder if it's just more fear that holds him back. They are old enough to understand.

I made a horrible mistake and I would give anything to turn back time and change things. I could have been stronger. I could have resisted. I could have done so many things differently. Now... Blake is really the only man in my heart, but he will never fully believe that. He loves me, he accepted me back... but he still has so much doubt. Like I said, I don't blame him. I deserve it... but...

How can I show him that he no longer has to worry about me?

I performed a ritual a little while ago. A swore a vow. Another blood vow. No one will know of this. No one will be able to stop this, reverse it or anything. I made my mistakes and I have to deal with it.

Blake, you are the only one for me and the next time someone tries to make it otherwise, they are going to get the shock of a lifetime. Cayden was always a quiet one. He was like me growing up. Nakia was always into things she shouldn't have been. A theif's daughter through and through. They do not deserve to be questioned... only my own actions...

I am the guilty one. Doubt only me, not them. And somehow... someway... I will prove to you...

posted by Lady Aurora Phoenix @ 11:00 AM Comments: 0