Sideline note...

Ra.... I really have no idea what I am doing... I don't know if it is the right thing or if I am making a huge mistake... I always cared deeply for Gabriel... But I love 'Kura so much. He has been good to me. He accepted me back even though he found out I slept with Gabriel not just once, but twice... He has never once harmed me. Never betrayed me. Never once done anything against me.

Yet 3 nights ago he lied to me.

I don't know- maybe he forgets I can catch on to things easier than others. That baby, I know it wasn't who he said it was... Why would he lie to me?... Why would I not be allowed to go into a room with him? I am his wife. He has never gone against me before. I am wondering if I am not getting the treatment I deserve. What if the baby is his and he has been with another all this time. I did sense a female upstairs... Is she the one?

Gabriel needed to talk to someone who would actually listen to him. For some reason he chose to talk to me. He told me things others would never believe. He told me he still loved me...

Ra how did I get into this mess?! What do I do? I don't want to hurt 'Kura... Our children... the twins... they are old enough to accept and understand.. Nakia even said she wouldn't be surprised if one day this kind of announcement came... And Serenity...

I asked Gabriel for help. He thinks it is just easy to go up to the man I have loved and been married to for more than 25 years and just tell him it is over... It would be easy if 'Kura was a jerk.. but he has never even hit me... Never laid a rough hand on me at all...

So what excuse do I give him?

How do I tell the most perfect husband I could have ever asked for... That I want out...

And what if I am making a mistake? What if Gabrile is just saying these things.... Planning on just ruining Bakura's life then doing to me exactly what he did to my sister? Controling her. Abusing her, cheating on her...

If he does- I will not be like my sister... I would sooner be alone than be with a man who would cheat on me...

Because after what I am about to do.... I doubt 'Kura would take me back no matter how much I begged and pleaded with him...

I really wish a vision of my future would appear... because right now? I am scared out of my mind...

posted by Lady Aurora Phoenix @ 10:57 AM Comments: 0