Slow Road To Recovery

At least I AM recovering though.

I haven't been able to get ahold of 'Kura though. I haven't seen him since it happened either... I miss him terribly. I can only imagine how long it will take before my mother figures it out... She is where I got the gift of second sight from. If she doesn't already know there is someone in my life, she will learn soon enough, I'm sure. To be honest, I am surprised I was able to keep it from my uncle all this time. He has always kept such a close eye on my brother and me.

I hear people coming into the house. I have locked my door so that I am left alone. I am not sure I want to really be in the presence of too many others right now... I guess it is still too soon after the attack.

The nightmares don't go away. I woke up last night to my mother holding me tightly. My throat was sore. I could tell I had been screaming. I saw a cut on Mother's face already healing from where I had scratched her. My father was on the other side holding my arm straight while Dorian gave me a shot of some kind. Just before I slipped back to sleep, I heard my mother whisper something about the time coming to help me a bit more. I don't know what is going to happen. But it can't be much worse from what I have already been through.

The noise has quieted. I hear one female voice. It's soft and light. Almost angelic. I don't know it, but when I heard it a vision of a girl with crystal blue eyes and a bright smile flashed in my mind. There was a light around her that was almost unnatural. Almost etheral... like she couldn't have been real. There was a guy with her from what I heard. Someone she seemed to care about. He was quiet and kind of shy. At least.. I think... I got a mixed feeling about his voice. i closed my eyes and saw two faces. One sweet and kind. One dark and mysterious. Both equally handsome. One a gentleman, the other a .... well.. a sex-crazed animal...

I don't know if this girl knows much about him. I sense few know the differences in him. The quiet presence who was here tonight though.. he likes her... Maybe a bit intimdated by her, but he still likes her. No doubt her light attracted the darkness within him. I wonder who they are and why they are here.... Perhaps if I ever start feeling better again, I can venture out of my room and see for myself. Then again... my face is still healing... Dorian says it could be another 2 days before my power is at full strength enough to complete the healing process...

I guess for that I am glad that 'Kura hasn't been able to see me.. I don't think I could handle him seeing me like this... He's used to my beauty... This... this mark... *looks down* It's bad enough the bastard carved his initial onto my hip as a permanate reminder... No matter how much power I have, that was too deep.. I will always have it to remind me... I just hope that 'Kura wil be able to see passed it... I ...

I don't know what I would do if he kept me at a distance after this... I need to hear his voice, but I am afraid to call. I want to be in his arms, but I can't leave just yet... not sure he would chance coming here...

I just want.... *sighs* ... I don't want to be around anyone...

But I don't want to be alone anymore either...

posted by Lady Aurora Phoenix @ 8:16 AM Comments: 0